The Job Hunt Continues...

     So it's definitely been awhile since my last post on here. In that time, I have still been looking for a job and even had a small bout of depression over it (obviously I'm being over-dramatic but I can't help myself lol). It's funny how in nursing school they tell you that nurses will always find jobs in their field, which is true, but they could have also told me that it would also take forever to actually find that first job. Granted my search has only been for four months now, it feels like the longest four months of my life. It's even more difficult sometimes when you here all your friends finding jobs so quickly after passing their boards (I have a friend who got a job the week after she passed her boards and started working the week after that). I was never one to hate on other people's success but I just wish some of that success or even some luck would come my way. I'm to the point where every time my phone rings I jump, hoping it's a potential job call.
     Recently I had an interview for an operating room fellowship through the same health system I did my externship with. It would be a 6 month program with 7 weeks in the classroom and the rest of the time with a preceptor. It also would require a 2 year working commitment which I have no problem with. I was told that they were looking into choosing 10-12 people for the program and it would start in January. It is a full-time job with benefits I just think of it as having an extended orientation period. Overall I think my first interview went well. The woman that interviewed me had done an event earlier in the year for all the externs that worked with the health system last summer so she remembered my name. She even seemed to be almost a little shocked that I wasn't working yet or that I hadn't heard back from the health system earlier about jobs. Anyway long story short, I ended up scoring a second interview with the nurse manager of the OR at one of the health system's most well-known hospitals. That being said, I am nervous beyond belief. This is pretty much my first real interview process since graduating and taking my boards. This is the interview that makes you or breaks you because I would assume that after this interview would hopefully lead to an offer of employment. I am trying not to freak myself out but I really want this. I have never really even considered being in the operating room because I assumed that it was no man's land for new grads. But now that I am being considered for this program it seems like it would be the most amazing learning experience for me. I am scared to even mention it to too many people because I feel like that could jinx me lol. All I can do is practice some behavioral questions and hope for the best in this situation and hope that this is my moment to start the rest of my life. If not then I might actually go into that bout of depression I was talking about before haha. Hey what can I say, I'm a work in progress...